New Year Resolutions for 2009

Well, I am going to do my New Year Resolutions for this year and i hope it really gets done, not just write for fun.. Hahaz!

1) Do well for my studies in UQ, must work really hard to score and do well so that i do not waste my parent's money and have no regrets at the end of they day.

2) Be less snappy at people, must watch how i respond to others so i will not hurt them.

3) Continue to be active in sports, go for trainings and stuff.. When in UQ can join some activities to keep myself active.

4) Continue to love my family and friends, treasure them always.

5) Continue to keep in touch with all my friends from both secondary and polytechnic.

6) Take part in races or marathons in Australia.

7) Continue to eat healthy and live healthy!

8) Must always remember to stay happy and cheer up no matter what, cause life is short, so no time to wallow in sorrow but only to celebrate in joy.

9) MUST, DIE DIE MUST bake and cook in Australia, make good use of ALL the recipe books i got for Christmas in 2008.

10) Just make the best out of every situation, make 2009 a memorable yet interesting year!

The only regret i am going to have is that i cannot celebrate my 21st Birthday in Singapore.. 20/09/2009,HOW MUCH NICER CAN THE DATE GET?!?!?!?!?!

Oh wells, i am sure it will still be a memorable one, because i know that 2009 is going to be a great year as i embark on a new journey.. And i am going to have Xue Ying with me in Australia, so it will be superb!

So happy new year everyone! I wish all of you the best of health, luck, love and prosperity! May we all have a superb year ahead of us and have no regrets when we look back.. =)

A closure to 2008

Well, its the end of 2008 and i would like to do a long summary of what has happened in this year..
1) I came back from Shanghai, back to the sunny island and the comfort of my family and friends...
2) I graduated from polytechnic and have obtained my well-deserved diploma...
3) Became a super big ba zhang when i just came back from Shanghai weighing 59kg, but now i am at 54kg..
4) Started working more often to earn money if not i would have no income..
5) Went to book for driving test with Evelyn on Valentine's Day and spent it with my babes..
6) Got involved back into band, went with them into the SYF Outdoor Competition 2008...
7) Got myself into a relationship i have been looking so forward to. Though things did not work out, I have no regrets cause at least we tried...
8) Celebrated my 20th Birthday with friends and family, where i got super wasted for the first time in my life...
9) Learn driving from a screwed up instructor and then changed to a better one thankfully..
10) Voiced out how i really felt with my besties and brought the friendship to another level..
11) Waraku Ladies Night sessions with my poly babes and became so much closer and bonded together..
12) I completed 5 races, NUS Biathlon, New Balance Inter-College Biathlon, Army Half Marathon, Quadrathlon and Standard Chartered FULL MARATHON with a timing of 5:19:25
13) I passed driving on my first attempt!!
14) Became closer to a few secondary school buddies with more gatherings..
15) Attended my VERY FIRST OCS Social Night..

2008 has been really fulfilling to me.. Gained more experiences in a whole year.. More great memories, lessons and a great journey in life, love, friendship and education.. I have went through the really ups and really downs.. When i was down, i always had something or people to bring me up.. So i want to thank those who have been there, in random order..

My Brother (i miss you), Cousins Leslie and Dennis, Charity, Lisa, Ian, Mark, Nigel, Delong, Syafiq, Rennie, Khairul, Candice, Shi Hui, Chaplin, Keng Kee, Jaren, Swee Kee, Hazel, Xue Ying, Evelyn, Tang, Annette, Wilson, Chee Chin, Coach, Grace, Thomas, Yan Ling, Patricia, Tiong Han, Darren, (basically the whole Tri Team), Edwin, Chen Pei, Mr Poh, Syafiq, Norman, Felix, (basically the band peeps and trumpet juniors close to me) and not forgetting the most important peeps in my life, MA and PA!

It is because of ALL OF YOU, that is why i had such a fruitful year.. Hanging out together, being there when i am down, cheering me up when i am upset, running marathons with me (EVEE), going training with me (Yan Ling), being crazy together and so much more.. From the bottom of my heart, i truly truly thank all of you and no words can express how grateful, blessed and thankful i am to have s0o0oo0o0o0o0o many angels in my life... With angels like all of you, what more can i ask for?

I love all of you, truly do... Take care and please keep in contact, because want to keep all my angels with me, to keep guiding me and to show me the path to take in times of need.. I wish all of you all the best, may 2008 be a great year for you all as it has been SUPERB for me..

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!

Update about me..

Okie, for those who i have fooled long enough, i have passed my driving test!! 6 points!! Hahaz... And i DID not wear short skirt or some revealing wear okie.. Hahaz!!

Haiz, band has been bad for me so far.. I mean, i do enjoy going back, teaching the juniors, hanging out with the alumni.. But the trumpet juniors has been in some way killing me..

I do not ask for rewards, i do not need you guys to thank me and treat me like some saint... All i want is to see you guys put in the effort to improve, to strive for the better.. Things like being keen to learn, remembering things that are taught, COMING for band practices and so much more.. I am not paid to come back, when i come back i am not able to work and i will not see you guys at SYF Indoor 2009 cause i will not be in Singapore.. But i want to help you all because i know that it will benefit you people in some way...

Today i went back, asked you all a VERY simple question.. Why do you come for band? The answers i got were stunning:
1) Don't know
2) Cause no choice, it is my cca
3) Got interest in music
4) Like to play the band music
5) Can learn music

The ironic part is those who said they got interest in band, their attendance is HORRIBLE... I mean, if you REALLY LOVE band, you would come right?! Its like why i come back? Because of the passion i have, the passion to teach you guys, to hear band music, to see you all improve and make it in life..

Then again, Charity said something really wise to me.. Maybe because you hold too much an expectation of them, thats why you get more disapponted.. Maybe i really have been too harsh on them, maybe i am the one who cannot teach well, maybe the main problem lies in me... Maybe i should just not come back and help since i am not helping them in any way.. I am tired and disappointed..

Everytime i go back for band, its like tearing up a wound that has not healed once again... But i still do it over and over again, because I JUST WANT TO SEE YOU GUYS MAKE IT IN LIFE...

A night to remember.. 19th Dec 2008

I went for my very FIRST OCS Social Night last night!! The honour was given to me by my really close bud Mark! It was really spendid and i had the greatest of time.. I was super duper nervous can! Even more nervous then when it was our prom night!!

It started off with frenzy preparation work done by my two besties Lisa and Charity! Lisa came super early to straighten my super furball like hair.. Charity came later to finish up by tying my hair and doing my make up.. Thank you babes so much for pushing aside your agenda for the day and decided to help me.. I really appreciate the effort and am very VERY thankful to you both..

Without the two of you, i would look like the same old me, with nothing special.. Thanks to both of your SUPERB SKILLS that has made me look so different till i really cannot believe it.. Hahaz!! You babes are really loved by me and you know i super mean it... =)

Mark was being the best gentlemen i have ever came across with holding the door for me, taking the food or drinks, giving up his seat for me and etc.. I guess that is what a guy is expected of during Social Night? Hahaz!! We took alot of photos and had great chats..

Then we headed off to meet Delong after the event is over and we watched the movie Twilight.. I think it is a great show, provided you have not read the book.. After that we went for supper and then headed to send me home... So many great memories i had which i shall keep for life!!

It is getting real late and i need to sleep like pronto!! Hahaz.. Been the best best best "date" ever... =)

I can PROUDLY say i have been to Social Night.. =)

Finally we caught up!!

I had a really salty dinner last night, but the company was great.. Went to Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe to have dinner with Lisa and Charity.. I ordered the century egg congee which was not bad, except for the fact it was super salty!! Hahaz... Other than that, Lisa's and Charity's food look superbly good and tasted great too!!

As usual we were all talking to loudly, or rather Charity got too excited and we started to squealing again.. Hahaz.. There were these 3 working adults that kept staring at us lah!! super embarassing, but i am glad we are used to it.. Thats the amazing part when we are together, no matter how noisy, high pitched or loud we are, we will just not really care about it!!

Then we headed to Starbucks cause Charity needed her dosage of TOFEE NUT LATTE.. Hahaz.. It smells really superbly nice, but a little to sweet for me.. Hahaz.. Then we were lost, not knowing where to go, we went to Lisa's house in the end... Cause Charity miss Porche so much she needed her dosage of her! Hahaz...

Then at Lisa's place, we started to like go on a mass makeover for me... Hahaz.. Ear ring, clutch bag, dress, straightening of the fur ball which is my hair and make up.. It was super hilarious, i think i am just not suited for make up.. I look like somebody who just got punched in the face... Hahaz!!

Then Lisa's brother was nice enough to send us home!! I am so glad we met up, i am really sorry if i have been very attitude.. I am just really super happy that we managed to clear things up in some way and give me time... I love you babes alot, you babes know it.. =)

Meeting up with my poly babes!!

I had a very great dinner to start my week last night.. I thank all of you, Candice, Shi Hui, Swee Kee and Hazel... That you babes for always taking time out to meet up no matter how busy or tired you babes are.. With work, personal life or studies, you babes always make it a point to meet up and have dinner at our favourite hang out, WARAKU!! The ladies night is seriously a VERY good deal!! Hahaz!! It just sucks that when we meet up, i am out of 3 times, 2 times sick.. That really is super dao mei.. Hahaz...

I ordered cold noodle on a cold day! How ironic right!! Hahaz.. But with enough wasabi, even the worst blocked nose will be cleared in an instant!! Hahaz!! Next time, instead of carrying a tube of the vicks nose inhaler thing, everyone should try carrying a tube of wasabi and eat it when your nose is blocked.. A small portion would do, small little portion to clear the worst blocked nose!! Hahaz...

We had a great chat, and great exchange of presents!! I am so so guilty please, cause i am the only one who really did not get anything for anyone! Sorry ah, super broke and super budget now.. Have not worked for 3 weeks le, means no income!! I thank all of you for the great time and great presents.. I have a 'booky' Christmas this year! Hahaz!!

Shi Hui gave me 2 books based on real life accounts, Candice gave me 2 asian recipe books, Swee Kee got me a notebook.. Hahaz! Hazel, thanks for the really interesting bitchy office gossips!! Hahaz.. Like it is going to really be a BOOKY Christmas!! Thank you all so much, I LOVE YOU BABES TO THE SMALLEST MICROSCOPIC BITS!!

Thank you babes sincerely from the bottom of my heart.. =)

Movie with deep meaning..

If you are intending to watch The Day That Earth Stood Still, please read this entry AFTER you have watched.. =)

Okie, today i spent my day eating and writing Chrsitmas cards for my working colleagues.. Oh my goodness, sriting the cards require so much brain juices and now my brain is so so fried!! Hahaz!!

Received a sms from my son Khairul in the late afternoon to watch a movie.. Decided to say yes since i am free and i would love to spend some time out with friends rather then be alone at home.. Since my brain was so fried, a movie would be great! Hahaz.. Went to catch the movie The Day That Earth Stood Still with Chang Yuan and Qi Zheng as well..We met up, had dinner, gossip here and there, watched the movie and headed home..

The movie has a deep meaning to it, at least to me.. It talks about how we humans have become, a specie that can be so hopeless at times.. We have become species that has been psycho-ed that alien invasion would only be evil.. The word INVASION says it all.. This would then resort to us using violence and weapons to counter attack this "invasion".. Even if they are here to save us or try to save us, we have become so wary of one another that we bring up our defence wall a little too soon..

Also, it talks about how we humans are only willing to change only when faced with great danger or the brink of death.. We tend to be so full of ourselves, thinking that we are the greatest and the smartest.. This will be a major factor for the downfall of us humans.. It is the same as only when someone is about to die, they say their whole life flashes through their eyes and they start to regret things that they did or did not do.. The irony of life, it is so full of regrets, yet it is so fulfiling!

It is like only when you have lost someone then you tend to treasure.. When you know a friend or family member is on the brink of death then you start to spend so much time with them.. This is what i call "crash course".. You combine the time you INTEND to spend with the person and spend the most amount of time possible.. Talking about this, i have not visited my nanny for ages man...Darn!

Now to think of it, i don't know what i am writing.. Like no link!! Hahaz.. Oh wells, my little thoughts floating around in my head.. I just want to have a great end to the year 2008, and a great beginning for year 2009 before i leave.. =)

Little thoughts..

So today i went for driving in the afternoon nd again my mind was not really focusing.. Like made alot of mistakes and i am very pissed with myself for being such a blur cock.. Oh wells..

After driving i met up with my son!! Hahaz!! It was a rather last minute plan but i had a GREAT chat with him.. Talking about the past, the present, did not really go to the future though.. Hahaz... There is so much that we can talk about when we are just catching up with one another.. We went for late lunch at like 4 and then headed to Coffee Bean to slack.. I ordered a Machiatto which i thought would come in a regular coffee mug, but i was so wrong.. It came in a expresso cup which was super small.. But it is super potent and super shoik! If you are not a coffee lover, then this is not your thing! Hahaz..

Anyway I went for Ian's POP yesterday and i must say, it is much better than the Home Team Academy... Hahaz... At least they are more organized and the commands are given with more commanding presence... I am so proud of Ian to have survived NINJA!! Wishing him all the best and i truly hope he will get into wherever he wants to be in.. =)Went to the POP with Ian's mum and we chatted like best friends please! Hahaz.. Then aunty made a comment, that now she finally gets to meet her friends again, catching up after not meeting up for a super long time..

This got me wondering, is this part and parcel of life?In secondary school, you see your friends daily in school, or class or even in your co-curricular activites.. After school you guys might hang out and on weekend might even meet up.. You spend most of your time with your friends.. Then you move on to college, tertiary or start working.. If you move on to the same place, good for all of you as you still get to see one another..

But if you go your seperate ways, then things are different.. You make new friends, you have different time-table and activities, different commitments.. Lifestyle has changed, things have changed.. You have more things to handle and have less time for one another.. More friends in your social life, more activities in your life and etc.. Hence you meet up lesser as compared to secondary school years as we are all so busy..

Then when all the education is achieved, you move on to building your career, getting married, having kids and completing a family.. Priorities has changed, family and work comes in first, friends are placed aside.. Not because you want to, but because you have to in order to have sufficient time for your kids and spouse.. Not forgetting your parents and siblings.. You RARELY get to meet up with your friends as you are so overwhelmed with all these on hand.. Not meeting up can range from months to years.. This, is a common sight...

Then once your children are big enough, they move on with life, get busy with their own friends and activities, you are more stable with work, more slack as well, you have more time to yourself.. That is when friends come into the picture again.. You get to meet them again, catch up with one another after many years and see how each has changed or moved on...This is a very common sight..

At least for me when i see my parents.. It is nothing to be sad about, nothing much that can be done, but how i so wish i could make a difference.. That no matter what, i would always have time to meet up with my friends, without having to sacrifice family or work.. But then again, in reality, we do not live in a perfect world..

Sometimes the things that we want so much might not be what others want as much.. Don't you agree?

Priceless timing and face!!

Hahaz!! I did a
5:19:25

Yeah man!! And i am on page 3 out of 15!! 295 out of 1550!! I could not have done it without EVEE AH!! Hahaz!!Look at my horible face man!! Can check it out...

http://www5.marathon-photos.com/scripts/event_entry.py?job=Sports/2008%20Sports/Singapore%20Marathon

The face of AGONY and PAIN! Hahaz.. Was shouting my way through the finishing line ah.. So super UNGLAM!!

But i am SUPER HAPPY!! And i don't care about the unglam-ness!!

Standard Chartered Marathon 2008

Yesterday was seriously a super exciting and anxious day for me.. Actually, for many of usi guess as we tok part in the Standard Chartered Marathon 2008.. I decided to take up the challenge and achieve my personal goal of doing the full marathon as i have already done the 10km and half marathon few years back.. So its time to take it a notch higher and go all out for it.. It turned out so great, it has been one of my best races ever.. And i seriosly cannot have done it without my bestest running buddy, Evelyn...Thank you Evee!! I know you were super tired, but it was even more tiring trying to get me going!! But you did your best and it really kept me going strong!! MUACKS!! I LOVE YOU!! =)

Evelyn is ALWAYS the one to run with me during long distances.. I remember our very first time was Standard Chartered 2006, where we both took part in the Half Marathon Category.. She was there to cheer me all the way.. Then last year as i was in Shanghai, i was unable to take part in the marathon.. So this year, we ran 2 races together, Army Half Marathon and Standard Chartered Full Marathon..

Evelyn, i am so thankful and grateful to be blessed with YOU as my friend, buddy, nd simply a person whom i can trust so much.. You never fail to help me brighten my day when i needed it, lend me a listening ear when i was so desperate for it, supporting and being there for me during good and bad times, always encouraging and pushing me on during races and so much more.. No words can express my gratitude and respect that i have for you...

A close babe that is always so caring and loving.. One that i know does not pretend but is always genuinely herself.. I admire your character, the way you can gain the trust of others, the way you always show concern for others, the charitable heart that you have to be willing to help others even though you might have problems of your own.. You my friend, you my running buddy, you my babe, YOU are my idol.. =)

There was this point where i was so close to giving up, because Evelyn was quite ahead of me and my knees were in pain.. But seeing her turning back to look for me kept me going.. I know she has got my back, i know she is looking out for me.. I told myself, "Evelyn has accompanied you to run this race, all the more you should push yourself and go on, no stopping, no walking, just keep running..."

And it worked after a while.. It was tough as i wanted to go faster, but my legs would not respond.. Walking to rest was not an option, as when you walk, it is more painful then when you run.. And when you walk, once you run again, your knees would be in excruciating pain.. That was what both of us went through yesterday.. Thinking about it, it was quite funny...

The last 3km seems to be like a never ending run.. We just kept going, but it seems so far far away.. That last bit of the race was horrible i say! Hahaz.. Until we reach the bridge towards Fullerton, we heard people cheering for us.. Not just ordinary people, but my teammates, I could hear Kai Wen shouting at the top of her voice, Tiong Han, Anette, Xue Ying and Coach too.. I was too tired ti really look who was present, but to all of you there yesterday, a BIG SINCERE THANK YOU!! Your voices gave me a very very needed boost of energy, and it works better than eating 10 powergel.. Hahaz!

When we were reaching the finishing line, i was singing along with the songs that were being played.. At the very end, Evelyn and i held hands in like the very first time we completed our half marathon and i shouted out loud to express my sense of accomplishment! It was super duper shoik! My legs were super numb, tired, painful and just cui-ded, but i still had the energy to shout as i was not that out of breath..

When i crossed the finishing line, HAND IN HAND with Evelyn, i felt such a huge accomplishment that i had to hug Evelyn.. I would not have done it within 5hours and 21minutes.. This is a timing that i am so so so satisfied with.. Nothing more i can ask for, because i already had the best of everything yesterday..

I had the best weather, i was at my best state of mind, i had the best companionship, i finished within the timing i wanted to complete and i did my very very best..

Catching up...

Today i woke up late for driving.. Had a bad start, driving lesson was rather upsetting too.. In some way i just was not focused enough.. Oh wells.. Then headed home, had lunch with my mum and headed towards my grandmother's house..

Then went to take my pay and then did some Christmad window shopping on my own.. Then went home, managed to escape from the heavy downpour..

Dinner was at Pasta Mania! Met my son for dinner!! We ate, sat and chit chat for super long before deciding to leave.. It was great to have seen you son, updating one another about our lives.. Juat remember, cheers and smile cause you know i have got your back!! And yes, you are my ultimate choice.. =) You know what i mean..

Don't know why these few days like eat le very fast hungry.. Think i going through puberty again.. Hahaz!!